The new year

Well, Happy new year, I am still not so sure how I feel about it, I was really excited at first and was ready for a fresh start. However, now I am not so sure, it seems that a lot of things are hitting me that I wasn't ready for and I'm not sure if I am going to know how to handle them.  My eating issues seem to be doing a little better, but they were going downhill again for a week or so.  I can't tell if it is because of stress or if depression is just eating away at me.  I won't lie this time of year really gets the best of me and I am running out of ideas on how to stay positive!  Its really getting hard, every time I look around the corner there is a new challenge or road block in my way.  I wish life was easy or at least fair, but I know it is neither. I don't know what the rest of this month is going to bring but I do hope that it brings some control and a little bit of a change because for once in my life I am begging for something, I'm just not sure what yet.