It seems that as the end of the year is approaching I have really been struggling with the last year. I wonder if I tried hard enough, worked hard enough, and took care of myself good enough. It seems to be a constant battle with me. I really thought I was over bulimia but I have battled it so much through the year that I guess I have come to the conclusion that I actually need a lot more help with it. It makes me really said to think that I always drag myself down into the same whole over and over again. Just one time I would like to learn my lesson and stick with it!
Don't get me wrong, a lot of good things have happened this year, mainly meeting Jeff, finding some really good friends, and working some kinks out with my family. When I think back this time of year last year was so different than the way it is this year. It really is scary!
I just hope that next year I can really get a handle on my life and some of the struggles that I can't get a handle on right now. The scary part is how am I going to do it!
you'll be fine!
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