oh dear November!

Oh dear I hope this month gets better!  Yesterday started out really rough!  I got sick and was throwing up all day and didn't end up going into work at night, when I really need the money!  I also keep having these urges to leave the area, I don't know what is going on but Syracuse is really bothering me lately, its not even the people its more the atmosphere!  I think maybe its the weather the idea of really cold snow gets me upset!  I don't really know.  I'll I know is I'm not to into this being depressed thing,  Jeff and I keep fighting over really dumb shit, and that is just making it so much worse!  I know things will get better its just right now things are really bothering me!  I sorta wish I could run away for like a week or so maybe just to get my thoughts together!  The job I got it not enjoyable at all, and I know I should be thankful for what I have but this is just sucky.  gahh  I wish I was a cat or just lived in a sustainable community somewhere!  grr I need more coffee =)