welllll =)

I have not really gotten on to write much lately because I have been going under alot of change, I moved in with Jeff pretty much the same weekend that our friend Chris Grillo moved here from Oswego,
I was alittle worried about how everything would come about but so far it has been nothing but fun!
I love these boys very much and am so thankful for how much they are really helping me get thru,  moving and going thru all the transition is not easy for me at all, it is really scary and often i'm afraid I may be making the wrong choice and I'm setting myself  up for a failure.  I know for certain though that Jeff cares about me, and hes not just going to leave me hanging.  I wish I could get things worked out with my family, but I guess that whole holier than thou aspect of my family is really coming into play lately.  Its like you would think that after awhile people would just start to love someone for who they are but they won't think I'm doing the right thing till I'm some married woman who granduated from Bible school, and that is defently not going to happen, and hurts like hell to know that I'll never be accepted just for who I am.  I talked to my little brother last night and it really hurt to know how much I miss him, I love that boy with everything I am, and I don't know how to really be happy without him in my life.
I wish I could just make it so everyone could get along for the holidays atleast for the holidays.....