Another rainy morning

It seems as though the rain season is here instead of a nice fresh smelling fall, I'm not complaining though I guess we need it!  Yesterday was a struggle because okay so bulimia is throwing up, but I have almost forgotten how to eat normally period.  So I hadnt eaten untill,  I went to  pick up a good friend of mine and we talked about the problem and how I can work on getting better, and he goes "did you eat today?"  I guess I had not.  This path I have taken for so many years seems close to impossible to break, but I don't really have a choice anymore.  I'm a girl "a young woman"  who wants to have a family someday and prosper in this huge world.  That means I need to learn how to prosper properly.  I understand all that but its soooo much easier said than done.  I can't just go sit down three times a day or even twice for a meal without getting bloated because my stomach is so used to either not eating or throwing up.  I am determined and this friend who took me out to make sure I ate helped me see a different side to it all.  A side that maybe people do care about what happens to me and how I take care of my body.  So this is going to be a new day even if it is rainy!  I am going to continue to try because I have to and want to. 


I can't thank that dear friend enough for helping me to see something in a new way last night.